Being Brandy



Sometimes my head is a huge jumbled up chaotic ball of sheer cray…when that happens sometimes all a girl can do is WRITE! For me writing is a safe way to purge the ole noggin of all those “feels” that you just can’t seem to articulate! So without further ado…


I run

I jump

I scream

I rage

With twisted gnarled hands I claw

The mask is cracking

Yet redemption remains elusive

Everlasting night

Dark and tumultuous

It engulfs me

Surrender is eminent

I’m pulled under

Barely breathing now

Here come the fear

Now the doubt

A cascade of hot wet tears thunder down

The head speaks “let go”

A pounding drum sits beneath my bosom

It rhythmically pleads “hold on”

Head above water

Somehow I holdfast

Another chance granted

Eyes open

A light emerges

My face is warmed

Breath returns



A sigh

And then it comes…Clarity.


(this poem was composed by me…Brandy Hairl…just sayin)

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Daily Prompt: Breaking the Law

Daily Prompt: Breaking the Law

Think about the last time you broke a rule (a big one, not just ripping the tags off your pillows). Were you burned, or did things turn out for the best?
Who hasn’t broke the rules?! As I sit here and reflect on the last 37 years old my life…I realize I am just plain ole boring! LOL (Well that and somethings just shouldn’t ever be spoken of…AGAIN) The most recent incident I can think of was about 8-9 months ago. It was a beautiful sunny morning, the kids were off at school, Jason was working, and I was home alone. I had begun my day, doing some house work, prepping for dinner, and was about to exercise. I went into the bedroom and got undressed. There I stand in all my naked glory. The phone rings so I step into the living room to see who it is…I talk a few minutes then hang up. I walk back into the bedroom grab my workout DVD, take it back to the living room to pop in the DVD player so I can get through the warnings and such. Meanwhile as I am standing in front of the couch, I get a text msg, this grabs my attention….of course I am still naked and standing in front of my window, the curtain slightly open. Oblivious to some one walking or riding by my house, I hear someone yell from outside “Hey maybe you should put some clothes on!” Mortified, I hop behind the closed part of the curtain. Then I peek outside, of course no one was immediately in view, guess they moved on after the “friendly” warning. Of course I was petrified, my mind jumped into panic mode….”what if I flashed a kid” or “what if this person is calling the cops for me flashing them.” I worked myself into a frenzy! Later that day, my husband arrived home to me wigging out! I told him the story and all he did was laugh and hug me. Then of course the kids came home and HE TOLD THEM…then they had a ball with that story!
Everything turned out just fine, the only negative was my wounded ego.  But no indecent exposure complaints were filed!! 😛
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Last Year, the Harpy Returns, and my PSA…

This is interesting, last time I actually blogged here was in September 2012 when I had just gotten out of the hospital and was all Harpy Cray Cray on steroids!! Ahhh…FULL CIRCLE! (makes an imaginary circle with her fingers in the air!)

I feel as though I should make a PSA….I am hyped up on Steroids. I’m warning everyone, I will be BLOWING UP the blogs and social media feeds! Expect thrills, chills, bitchiness (as evidenced by the ass-waffle that my Harpy tried to EAT in the breakfast aisle in Walmart Friday…), FULL-ON Harpy mode (AKA Roid Rage..), as well as a plethora of emotional outbursts, cryptic messages, and a smidge of random-ness for good measure!!!


Those closest to me would be wise to take away my Blogging, Facebook, and Twitter privileges for the next two weeks!!! Just sayin…


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I am a Mega-Wattage Energy Ball…

I’m really blessed that I haven’t had to be on steroids (IV Solumedrol or Prednisone) in over a year and a half, they are a necessary evil for me on occasion, having chronic bronchial asthma and all. The benefits definitely outweigh all the awful side-effects, as it is a good thing to be able to breathe. But DAMN the side effects are horrible!!! Today I have the the swelling going on, swollen mid-section and face and have already put on nearly 5 lbs from fluid retention in just 4 days. AGHHHHHHHHHH….i think this is the worst part for me back-tracking on my weight-loss!!! Then there are the REALLY REALLY bad mood swings, the ravenous food cravings, and NOW I am this huge ball of mega-wattage energy that feels the need to clean every inch of my house. Granted I know that I need to relax and take it easy but all I am compelled to do is get up and move move move move move.


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